Saturday, February 11, 2006
Today would have been my dad's 66th birthday. He was so thrilled when he turned 65! He was finally eligible for certain benefits that were going to save him some money. He didn't get to enjoy them for long. I miss him. One year ago, we went out to dinner to celebrate, and then came home to have chocolate sheath cake-his favorite. I regret that I took so much for granted while he was here. I wish I had spent more time watching dumb war movies with him, or just sitting and talking to him. I am glad though that he got to be so much a part of mine and the boys' lives. I'm glad I had the time to grow stronger while he was here after the divorce. And I'm glad the boys got to know him. It's still a little hard to hear AJ say, "Mama, I miss Gaga!" All I can say is, "Yeah AJ, me too." It's sad I guess, that he says it a little less now. Or maybe not. Maybe it just means we are healing. But I still miss him.
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